How I Spent Superbowl Sunday: Golden Pistachio Oreos

Golden Pistachio Oreos

It's no secret that I'm still learning. It's no secret that it's been a jagged line to get to where I am today. I called my mother yesterday, I said we need to bake more. She said, "Absolutely" then changed the subject. It's no secret that there is more silence than I'd like but it's not really a secret why that is, either.

I keep thinking about memories. Not remembering things in the actual sense, the active sense, but the intangible nouns that occupy my time. How hard we try to recreate the past. And it's no secret that it's the hardest thing to do. And still we try. Like when my sister wanted to go to New York for Christmas and how we watched a movie we both liked when I was 9 and she was 13. And it all felt like pebbles to me, worn down and soft to the touch. Idly, we skipped them for a month or two and counted the times they skidded across the surface and felt happy for the moment. It wasn't until later when the pond looked expansive and deep and it wasn't worth the effort to remember the years between us from 9 and 13 to 26 and 30.

    Golden Pistachio Oreos

    And it's no secret I've grown up. Especially the last few years. Especially with Nolan. Especially in California. Especially now, in this moment, with dogs and chickens and a fiance relying on me. And this weekend we watched the Super Bowl and I read when I was bored. And we got some takeout, like we did the last time we watched the game together in 2011. And we took a nap, like the last time we watched the game together in 2011. And we laughed at the commercials and we cuddled the dogs and we did the dishes and I made cookies to keep busy. And it was then I realized that it wasn't recreating all the things that made us smile, the intangible things that felt so comfortable in the moment we created them, but memories are things to improve upon. To adjust to the new lives we have. To be grateful for the handful of pebbles still in my pocket and to look at them all with possibility. And it's no secret I've fucked up at doing this for years and years and years, but it's different now and I'm not so sad to talk about old memories anymore.

      Ingredients for the Cookies:

      • 10 TB unsalted butter, softened
      • 2 TB shortening
      • 1/4 cup white sugar
      • 1/3 cup light brown sugar
      • 2 TB honey
      • 1 egg + 1 yolk
      • 1/2 TB vanilla extract
      • 1/4 teaspoon salt
      • 2 cups AP flour
      • 2 TB ground pistachios

      Ingredients for Filling:

      • 1/8 cup shortening
      • 2 TB unsalted butter, softened
      • 1/4 TB vanilla extract
      • 1/2 TB milk powder
      • Pinch of salt
      • 1-2 TB whole milk or heavy cream

       

        Directions:

        1. In the bowl of a stand mixer, cream together butter, shortening, sugars, and honey until light and fluffy
        2. Add egg and yolk with mixer on low until fully incorporated. Add vanilla
        3. With mixer on low, add dry ingredients. When just mixed, complete mixing with a rubber spatula and fold in pistachios
        4. Turn out onto a floured work surface and shape into a disc
        5. Refrigerate for at least half an hour
        6. While dough is resting, prepare a cookie sheet with parchment paper and preheat oven to 350*F
        7. When dough is done resting, turn back out onto your work surface and roll disc to about 1/3 inch thick
        8. Cut out 2-inch rounds and place on baking sheet
        9. Bake for 15 minutes or until edges are browned
        10. Allow to cool
        11. While cookies are cooling, whip together your shortening, butter, vanilla, and milk powder
        12. With mixer on low, add your confectioner's sugar slowly
        13. Add milk and salt to desired taste and consistency
        14. Transfer to piping bag and pipe onto top of one cookie
        15. Place second cookie on top to make a sandwich
        16. Repeat with remaining cookies
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Catherine Tate
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        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos
        Golden Pistachio Oreos

        The Farm's First Christmas!

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        It's really beginning to feel like the holidays for me now. It never did before. In college, I felt that being home was a burden, a hazy one that either ended with me moping in my room, or texting my college friends with small details of how "annoying" my family was. In California, as I've talked about before, it never felt like Christmas, wearing shorts and driving the interstate to find fast food restaurants that would stay open for us. Or, some years, we split the burden--one of us would stay with the dogs while the other spent Christmas with family back in Pennsylvania. Lonely is all I remember for three years then.

        I didn't keep up with the traditions; I never bothered to try. Maybe it was too painful, or maybe I just didn't really care that much. Those in-between years of settling and resettling, in rented houses and backyards that were too small, I never thought I had anything to celebrate. And, as always, I was wrong. And, as always, I'm learning.

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        We moved into our house just after the holidays last year, so this is the first time we're really experiencing it all. The tree, the fir, the snow-packed dog paws that melt on the hardwood floors. Old ornaments from second-hand stores and our mothers' attics. Wooden ones, broken ones, ones that hang on paperclips instead of hooks. Things we've never done before, experiences that I've been wanting to create.

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        And it was good. Rushed, but good. Haphazard, but good, to look back at a year of questions and answers and understand that sometimes the most fun we're going to have in a week is doing the mindless, repetitive tasks that we used to hate as kids.

        And the same goes for cookies. It used to be a tradition, one that I seemed to forget about until I'm hungry for something sweet. But this year, as I shared with Modern Farmer, it's turned into something I love doing. Decorating, baking, cutting shapes and dipping them in coffee. I can't wait to give them out as gifts this year. And below this recipe is a special surprise for your pup as well!

         

         

         

         

        Iced Sugar Cookies

        Modern Farmer - Christmas Tree Cookies

        Ingredients:

        • 1/3 cup unsalted butter, softened
        • 1/2 cup white sugar
        • 1 egg (of course, we used our girls' fresh eggs!)
        • 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
        • 1 1/4 cup AP flour
        • 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
        • 1/4 teaspoon sea salt

        Directions:

        1. Cream together butter and sugar until light and fluffy
        2. Add egg and vanilla and mix together
        3. Sift together dry ingredients and gently stir into your butter mixture
        4. Turn out onto a floured work surface and pat into a disc. Wrap and chill for 1 hour
        5. Preheat oven to 400*F
        6. Roll out and cut dough into desired shapes (about 3/4 inch thickness worked best for me)
        7. Place on a parchment-lined baking sheet and bake for 9-11 minutes, or until edges are just browned

        For decorating: Use dyed royal icing (my ratio is 1 1/2 cup confectioner's sugar for each 1 egg white, plus a 1/4 teaspoon of water or so, mixed with your dyes) and a bit of patience for the decorating. I always remind myself that the more handmade it looks, the more love I put into it--so I never stress too much about perfection!
         

        Modern Farmer - Christmas Tree Cookies
        Modern Farmer - Christmas Tree Cookies
        Modern Farmer - Christmas Tree Cookies

        And here is an alternative for your best pal! Make these dog treats (recipe was shared here) and give them away to all your dog loving friends!

        Peanut Butter and Pumpkin Dog Biscuits
        Peanut Butter and Pumpkin Dog Biscuits
        Peanut Butter and Pumpkin Dog Biscuits
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